This time last year I said 2012 was going to be the best year ever. Instead it was a year of drastic changes and lessons learned. We went through a lot of upheaval, loss and transitions. Some of these things will be coping with in years to come, others have settled down to become the new normal for us.
We have suffered the loss of my husband which has left a huge void in our lives and one which we feel every day. It is highlighted in the little everyday things. There have been a few big things like first formal, first day of school, first Cub Scout badge that have made it all seem even more empty without him. The holidays and the kids birthdays were perhaps the hardest.
Through his loss though I have watched my children grow and show some maturity towards life. The kids have grown closer than ever. We have found laughter to be the biggest help of all and often try to imagine what smart ass thing he would say at any given moment. We have chosen to be positive and concentrate on the good stuff.
We lost a second family member just a few weeks ago. To many she may have just been a dog but for us Dolly is part of our family. We feel her loss as well. The kids miss being mauled with licks and jumping as they come home from school. I miss her quiet attentiveness when I needed an ear and some fur to hug. She always knew when we needed a laugh or extra snuggles.
So many changes this year. We said goodbye to the Carolinas and returned to the Blue Ridge Mountains. We left behind some awesome friends and beautiful memories, which we will always treasure. Things are getting brighter for us with the support of family and some old friends. And while we had the support of friends in Myrtle Beach we have found community here that has made us feel welcomed and has offered generous support.
All in all as we grieve for our losses, we are still moving forward and building up positive energy. It is that effort to look forward and see the sunshine instead of the rain that is making everything possible for us. Using the momentum we have gained we are going to push right in 2013 and make it a better, brighter year.
As the hours and minutes fade into history on what has been a remarkable year all around we want to wish you the best and brightest New Year!
Don’t grieve for me, for now I’m free!
I follow the plan God laid for me.
I saw His face, I heard His call,
I took His hand and left it all…
I could not stay another day,
To love, to laugh, to work or play;
Tasks left undone must stay that way.
And if my parting has left a void,
Then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss…
Ah yes, these things I, too, shall miss.
My life’s been full, I’ve savoured much:
Good times, good friends, a loved-one’s touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief—
Don’t shorten yours with undue grief.
Be not burdened with tears of sorrow,
Enjoy the sunshine of the morrow.
Light, Love and Peace!