Chapter 1 was my life pre-husband and pre-children. A time spent growing up with my parents, grandparent, brothers, aunts, uncles and cousins. There were definitely ups and down growing up. At this stage of my life there were more ups than downs. Which is the way it should be. I was surrounded by a loving, albeit, nutty family. I had some really good friends and so many adventures.
|Christmas weekend 2012|
Chapter 2 really began the day, February 14th, 1996, I met my husband Jay. I was in an online chat room actually hanging out with someone else. He and I began talking and friendship bloomed. Some would say that we moved too quickly. I made a few wrong turns but still found my way around the circle. He became the rock which I held on to.
This chapter of my life has been a bed of roses, thorns and all. Looking back there are a few things I would have done differently. But I don’t think that would have changed the outcome. Jay and I moved in together. It was a package deal, he had a beautiful little girl who instantly won my heart. 2 years later we added another beautiful girl to our family. On November 29th, 2003, in a little tiny ancient church around the corner from our farm, I became his wife. The year after that we added our son to our family.
We had some wonderful exciting adventures together. We had some low times as well. Like I said it was a bed of roses, thorns and all. No matter what we always knew that we loved each other and that we would always support each other come what may. The good times definitely out number the bad.
Chapter 2 came to a sudden halt last night. While at work, insisting upon staying though he hadn’t felt well, he suffered a major heart attack. Last night I lost my best friend and soul mate. Today I will be making his final arrangements and the kids and I will be saying our last good byes.
I made a promise 15 years ago that if he were to go before me I would continue on to the next Chapter in life. We will grieve, will we cry and we will miss him so very much. But I will keep my promise to him and we will carry on moment by moment and day by day. We have been remembering him, his love for us and our love for him. All the great times we had. We will continue to do so.
The kids and I will plan a memorial party for him, it was his request. We will celebrate his life, his accomplishments, his smart ass mouth, his sense of humor. Time and place are TBD.
I want to send a special thank you out to 2 awesome, bossy women who helped me and my kids get through this day. Ange who took a call at 1 am and came to console and fold laundry. Chrissy who deduced what was going on through some cryptic messages and called to say she would be right there. Between the two I kept my sanity, made it through the day until my dad arrived. My is clean and there is a ton of food and dental floss.
Christa, who came out tonight in the pouring rain to bring more food, her wonderful sense of humor and her company.
My brothers, brothers in law, friends who have poured out their love for all of us and their support. Know that we do love and appreciate you.
Light, Love and Peace.